Happy 2019, friends!
Oh, I know, it’s already April. Just thought I’d post about something so I can actually have something new on this blog.
Feeling meh about stuff
So, how’s your year so far? I’m assuming that unlike me you’ve fully said your goodbyes to 2018 and have done all your prep and planning for 2019. I mean, you know, you’ve done whatever it is that you usually do at the start of each year. I hope you’re doing better than me when it comes to that. It’s already April (my birth month!) and I haven’t really done anything.
For me, my new year ritual, if you can call it, just involves checking or reviewing my list of to-do’s and goals from the previous year and creating a new list – or, rather re-writing/reiterating the same one. I have yet to really sit down with myself to do this and I’m feeling a little out of sorts due to the fact that I haven’t yet.
Truthfully, I don’t quite know yet what to feel about the new year. The last few months felt like they took forever and at times felt unremarkable. My main feeling is just.. meh. I don’t know. I haven’t even picked my word, phrase or theme for the year – something I’ve done for the last couple of years and has helped me be more focused in a way.
I can’t say I didn’t try to do something. I took Susannah Conway’s Find Your Word mini course. I did the homework but still couldn’t come up with my word/phrase for the year. I also finally decided to print out her Unravel workbook and yet I’m only three pages in.
I feel a little weird about the whole thing, but also not too worried though for some reason. It’s like, even though I feel meh about the year a lot of the time, I still feel like I’m moving in the same direction as I was last year, but maybe just with a little less intensity. Not that I was a bubble of energy last year, but it’s like I am less sure or passionate about things in general and I’m just steadily cruising along. Not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.
I mean, I still want to do – or rather, I’m still trying to do – most of the things on my list from last year. I still want to develop a consistent yoga practice. I still want to read more books. I still want to be more healthy. I still want to keep going with my gratitude journal. I still want to write more. I still want to deep dive into tarot. I still want to start a meditation practice. And etc. I still have all these things in mind. I’m just not writing them down like I used to.
Anyway, I honestly don’t know why I’m rambling about this here. After re-reading what I wrote above, it doesn’t look like I have a problem. Haha. Oh man, I don’t know. I just feel weird about the year, that’s all. Ever felt weird and out of sorts like this? :D
Looking forward to things
Anyway, even if I’m feeling meh about whatever and feeling weird about not having a word/phrase for the year and all that nonsense I rambled about, I am still looking forward to what this year has in store for me.
I’ve been getting/seeing a lot of “beginning of something new” themed messages and things this month (my birth month!), so maybe this is when the new year is starting for me. I can’t help but feel intrigued about what it all means.
Also, my girl friends and I are hitting the beach again this year for our annual girls’ getaway so I’m really looking forward to some girl time under the sun.
So that’s it.
To make a long story short, this year feels weird but I’m fine. Bahaha. Oh man, this post is pretty useless. If you still ended up down here, thanks for reading. :)